If I Were A Boy 

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Somebody that I used to know

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

Dear best friends,

with love,

your best friend :)

"The Scientist"

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

aku rasa dah sampai masa aku teruskan hidup aku tanpa kawan hidup mati aku. aku mungkin akan ambil jalan yang berbeza dari diorang.. mungkin....


sedih bila fikir, kalau betul dorang tak study dengan aku, bukan senang nak cari kawan baru, kawan yang betul betul akan sedih gembira, susah senang dengan kita. aku ambil masa 3tahun untuk kenal hati budi diorang, dan aku rasa aku betul betul pilih kawan yang betul. *sad


hmm, macam biase la, sekarang time lunch, aku tak keluar, and aku habiskan masa aku dengan luahkan perasaan aku kat blog ni. kononnya. hihi..

sekejap je dah seminggu, tinggal lagi 2minggu untuk aku end up benda yang aku paling benci ni, intra. sekejap je masa jalan. dah 3tahun lebih. macam macam aku belajar. dari lemah ke kuat, dari buas sampai ke agak jinak. haha..

aku still tak tahu apa jalan akan aku pilih. btw, aku sebenanye terfikir, yang aku maybe akan belajar lain tempat dengan budak budak tu. hmm, myra pun ikot jalan dia, bolart pun tengok mcm nak tanak je belaja, ayu ngan natra plakk mcm nak study kat mitec je. akuu..... haihh, aku tak tahuu. tapi aku nak korang ada dengan akuuuuuuu.... *crying


aku nak balik taiping esok, lepak jap dengan mamat afro, pastu pergi ipoh settle pasal further study ni. aku nak dengar and tanya dulu dari mulut org unikl sendri. apa opinion diorang. tak pernah aku rasa susah nak buat decision macam sekarang ni. aku perlukan semua org punya opinion, and then, fikir betul betul, this is my future, bukan org lain. so, macam mana pun jadi nanti, aku kena survive. tanak main banyak dah macam diploma.. aku dah kena fikir tentang future aku, bukan fikir pasal nak seronok je.


matang sikit alia, tolong jangan cakap je, buat jugak, tahu? :)

firstly, aku nak cakap yang aku tgh senyum and gelak sorang sorang even tengah serabut. haha. baca balik blog kawan kawan aku yg story pasal kitaorang yang lama lama mengingat kan aku semua kenangan time study kat mitec..

yaa, miss them alot. *sad


sekarang time lunch, and aku rasa sejak sejak dah nak habis intern nie, aku cukup malas nak keluar lunch. aku lagi suka duduk kat office mengadap kerja or layan fb n twitter dengan kawan kawan. tu pun dah kenyang. nampak sangat kan aku rindu kawan kawan aku? :')


aku still lagi dalam dilemma nak further my degree kat mana. iprom or mitec?

kalau iprom, aku dekat dengan family aku. aku boleh selalu balik. dengar dengar iprom punya management pun okay. first sem dah boleh dapat mara. cuma....

ko pandai survive ke tak je. engineering kowt. boleh ke aku? *sigh


mitec pulak, aku dah kenal semua orang. aku dah tahu selok belok semua jalan situ, ramai member, nak buat apa apa pun senang sebab ramai contact. leturer okay, tapi hems? *middle finger


aku tak tahu. aku tak ada jawapan lagi. semalam saja call mama, mama cakap, sambung je laa iprom. senang sikit. johor tu jauhh. dalam hati aku memang mengiakan, tapi yang nak survive nanti, diri aku jugak. entah.


aku tak tahu. aku betul betul tak tahu, otak blank, hati pulak entah boleh percaya entah tidak.

macam macam yang aku fikir, for sure laa otak aku still fikirkan 'dia' even 'dia' dah takde kene mengena dengan hidup aku lagi. nak lupa tak senang. kan? lagi satu, aku betul betul rasa sedih bila dapat tahu myra tak kan follow kiteorg further study lagi. rasa sedih dia macam lagi teruk dari kay tinggal aku. seriouss..


apa akan jadi lepas habis intern nie?

aku pun tak tahu. serious. aku still tak de jawapan. mungkin aku akan harapkan parents aku punya decision.

mungkin iprom......

mungkin mitec....

mungkin kahwin? HAHA :)